Arizona Illustrated Episode 617

(upbeat music) – [Tom] This week on Arizona
Illustrated, a mother’s story. – I was taking about 20, 30
milligram of Oxycodone a day. Prescribed on the bottle
is one every 12 hours. – [Tom] The memorial garden at the U of A, – This is a huge part
of history as veterans from World War Two pass
away, including my dad. – [Tom] The Super Bowl band. – [Larry] It was really
kind of a surprise, we didn’t really know that
we were gonna be playing in the Super Bowl. – [Tom] And Tucson trains. – There is no avoiding the train if you live in downtown Tucson. (upbeat guitar music) – Welcome to Arizona
Illustrated, I’m Tom McNamara. During the next couple of
months, Arizona Public Media journalists and producers
will bring you stories behind the ongoing opioid epidemic
in southern Arizona in a series titled, “Arizona Addicted”. As part of that series we bring you the story of Tawny
Turmen and how her battle with opioids addiction helped
shape who she is today. – [Nurse] Thank you for seeing her. – I do remember the first time
I ever did take an opioid. I was 19, I was having back
pain and I was uncomfortable. And I took a Vicodin, it
almost felt like the feeling I was searching for for so long. I got the house clean, I
was motivated, I was happy using those medications to not
only block out physical pain, but hey, check this
out, they also block out my emotional pain too. I got married at a young age, I had my first child when I was 20. Prior to pregnancy is when I started kinda getting into the pills, for the pain, for the recreational use once I found out that I was pregnant, I had
stopped, had a great pregnancy, had a great marriage during it. This is probably the answer
to what I’ve been seeking for the emotional pain. This is my answer, being a mom is it. I didn’t know how hard being
a mother was at a young age. I got prescribed Percocet
for my C section, five milligrams to 10
milligrams to Oxycodone, we had stress from having a
child, the stress of trying to maintain the house and
expectations of everybody. I was taking about 20, 30
milligram of Oxycodone a day, prescribed on the bottle
is one every 12 hours, but I still had a job, I still had a car, I still had a marriage
and I still had a child, so, I knew I had a problem, but I didn’t, I thought I could stop. In 2011 I found out I was pregnant again. I was heavily addicted
to Oxycodone at the time, I was still getting it
prescribed during my pregnancy. So I used my entire pregnancy. By the grace of God, he was
not born with withdrawals. But it felt like I was being
given all the green lights and okays to continue being an addict because it’s prescribed. I was heavily addicted after he was born, where it absolutely
destroyed my bonding process. I’d be out of my
medication, two weeks early, hitting up family members
who I knew had prescriptions. I had gotten cut off from the doctors and it’s just a repetitive cycle. And so eventually you just
go buy them off the street. I called a friend, she told
me had something that wasn’t quite the same, but it would
take away the withdrawal. And that was heroin. It was cheaper and it sucked
me in faster than anything I ever could have imagined. Before I knew it, I was using it IV. I lost my kids, I had lost my job. So I did IV heroin for about three years. So this is on a five year
span, from prescriptions to homeless and shooting
up heroin every day. 20 times a day, I was using meth as well. Because of that pain, and
that guilt and that hate of failing as a mom, it
just increased my addiction more and more and more. At this time, I had overdosed
behind a Subway restaurant at four o’clock in the morning. Barefoot, and I didn’t know where
it was, who I was with, or why the cops were there, and
I caught yet another charge. And when that cop arrested
me, he looked at me and said he was staring at death walking, he said, “I see this every day, but I
can see the pain in your eyes “and the physical shape
you’re in, and I don’t know “how you’re still alive and I don’t think “you will be for much longer.” I had lost my children, I lost everything and I had met somebody. That relationship ended up
in an unplanned pregnancy. Terminating the pregnancy
was brought up many times by many different people
and it just I shut it down. I don’t know what happened,
I don’t know what clicked, but I called my mom one day, and I said, “Take me
to an ER, I don’t care “where I need to go, I need to get help, “I can’t do this again,
I won’t do this again.” So she took me to a hospital,
and the hospital had just started a program the week
prior for pregnant women who are trying to get off heroin. I was able to get off of the heroin with the medication, methadone. I had to change my whole
environment, people, places things. And it worked, I gave birth to my daughter and I was able to keep her. She went through a
little bit of withdrawal, but she was healthy and fine. – Is my friends. – How would I explain my actions? How could you abandon your children? How could you use while you were pregnant? I don’t have an answer,
I don’t have an answer. I was really sick. This is an illness, this
is a serious illness. Prior to being an addict, I judged, how the hell could anybody
do that to their children? How could somebody use
while they’re pregnant? Oh my God, just stop,
why can’t you just stop? It affects your brain
chemistry, it affects your thought process, before
you even know it’s happening, it happens. – I have four months as of today’s sober (people clapping) For Christmas, I’m not sure. I got approved to go back
home but it’s always a fear I got approved for
Thanksgiving and I didn’t go. You know what I mean? – What’s your fear if
you don’t mind sharing? – I just don’t, I know like
those are my stomping grounds like that’s where you know
what I mean, like everything is I’m not strong enough to go and not use. – Working here at the haven
is absolutely incredible, and so many times when
I’m talking with somebody and it’s like looking in a mirror. – He’s gonna be with his dad this year and I wish I could be with him. Last year, I was going
through a lot of losses with just getting out of jail
and like I wanted to change, I just didn’t know how
and I stopped drinking but like I still was not okay. – And I just wanna shake
them and tell them, it’s gonna get so much better. And then when I see them get
better and that light goes on and it’s a really powerful
feeling and I think a lot of it is what keeps
me where I’m at now. Three and a half years in
recovery, now working helping other women who are in the
same situation that I was in. Either lost their children
or currently pregnant and going through an addiction. This job and watching these
miracles happen every single day is such an exponential
part of my sobriety. It’s huge, giving hope to
somebody, showing somebody that that they can do it. Being that role model,
the biggest compliment that I’ll ever receive in my
entire life is when somebody says you’re an inspiration,
it’s almost too much to take in. I don’t feel like that. I have my mug shot hanging
in my office on the wall to show hey, look, it will get
so much better and it does. (slow music) Now I’m currently expecting,
I’m seven months pregnant with my fourth. You don’t take anything
for granted anymore because you know what
it’s like to lose it all. You know what’s like to be in misery, you know what it’s like to have nobody. So when you gain all that
back, and you’ve worked so hard for it, you have such
a bigger appreciation for it. And you learn to take nothing, even the smallest of things for granted. (slow music) – Hooray!
– Hooray! (slow music) – Over the course of 12
weeks, Arizona public media will explore the solutions,
stories and science behind the opioid crisis
in southern Arizona. Arizona Addicted will be presented here on Arizona illustrated
and across all of AZPM. Look for coverage on PBS
Six, NPR 89.1 and The University of Arizona’s
USS Arizona Memorial Garden was created as a gesture of
honour, remembrance and respect for those who died in the
1941 attack on Pearl Harbour. And as a reminder of the sacrifices made, this is the Memorial Garden. (dramatic music) – This is the USS Arizona Memorial that was installed in 2016 as
a way of honoring our heritage and our connection to the USS Arizona. Initially, the garden around
the USS Arizona was planted with flowering annuals, which are kind of a traditional way to honour at a memorial. But given our location
in the middle of the mall on the U of A campus, I felt
like there was an opportunity to do something really special
and something that would be innovative and creative and
draw attention to something that is a really important part of our history. And secondly, I felt like
it was also an opportunity to promote sustainable practices. (dramatic music) One of the goals that we had
in customizing this memorial was to recognize that the
actual USS Arizona was consciously left below water
out of respect for those people who lost their lives there. And so in developing this garden
with common materials that replicate the idea or the
illusion of a coral reef, is a way of creating a
much more custom tribute for this particular memorial. (slow music) – I made a donation to Tanya and told her she could do with it whatever
she wanted and she thought this was the best way to
put the money to good use. It was just so perfect. My husband was in the Navy. He was on a dock landing ship,
obviously not on the Arizona. He was in love with everything
Navy, all the history, all the accoutrements from
the ships, everything. So being involved with the
Navy, being involved with the University of Arizona,
being involved with the Tucson Cactus & Succulent Society, this all seemed to work
together just beautifully. Plus, a lot of our friends did
the planting of the plants. So it’s got a very emotional attachment. – He was Uncle Tom’s brother. In my case, I had an aunt
and uncle who are deceased, lived in the suburbs of Detroit, Michigan. And my uncle’s brother
was a member of the crew on December 7th, and his remains
are still aboard the ship. And it’s kind of a chilling
thing to think about. That I actually know
through several generations, a member of the crew, quite an experience. Right here. John Morgan Meares. He died on December 7th, 1941. And I was born in August of
1944, so he preceded me in death by roughly three years and yeah. It’s quite an honour for
me to be at this memorial, it really is. (slow guitar music) – There’s almost 1200
names there on those little brass plaques, that’s
important to keep that alive. We don’t really know or
don’t really understand where we’re going unless
we know where we’ve been. And this is a huge part of
history that has veterans from World War Two pass
away, including my dad. This history is more remote,
gets more remote every year, and I think keeping that alive
by bringing people through here and showing them
the outline of the call of the Arizona here, on this East mall, that’s really important to me. (slow guitar music) – Kevin was very unique. He was more on the shy side
until he got into academic areas that he was very used to
and very knowledgeable in. (slow guitar music) Anything that’s alive, we loved. And didn’t matter what
country, didn’t matter what nationality anybody was,
what type of weird pants, the weirder the better, and he was happy. (slow guitar music) I hope that the plants
grow and people will become fascinated by the uniqueness of the plants and that maybe little by little,
they’ll begin to understand that people can be as unique as the plants and be absolutely wonderful. (slow music) Obviously, I’m gonna be thinking of Kevin, and all the young men that died. And wondering when we’re
gonna grow up enough to stop fighting each other. (slow music) – Trains have been a part of
Tucson’s history since 1880. And they’re a part of everyday
life for people who live and work in downtown Tucson,
including Dirk Arnold, who’s always looking for
what’s coming down the tracks. (train bell ringing) – (gasps) Okay, what
do we do now? (laughs) Just do my thing. (upbeat music) (train bells ringing) There is no avoiding the train if you live in downtown Tucson. They go through very frequently,
unpredictably at all hours of the day and night. (train horn blaring) I love it. It’s reassuring to know
that things are happening outside of Tucson and
stuff is going to and fro. Okay, my name is Dirk
Arnold, I’m a local artist. I do a thing I call endangered
architecture, which is miniature building facades of
historic Tucson structures. And I am the designer
of the Gateway Saguaro, the 30 foot high neon Saguaro at the foot of the Miracle Mile. I do my work right across the street in the citizens’ warehouse
up on the second floor right near the railroad tracks. I think I tend to always
pay attention to the trains. When I was a kid, I always
used to love to wave to the conductor, the engineer, and hopefully he’ll wave back at you and say “Hi”, but I’m too old for that now. When I’m working in my studio,
once in a while you hear a horn that just doesn’t sound
quite like the usual horn and that one will
usually get me to go look and see what’s coming down the road. It’s always kind of interesting
just sort of imagine what’s going by, as it cruises along. It’s part of the Old
West, and what little bit of the Old West we sort
of still cling to here, that’s part of it. (upbeat music) The train came through
Tucson I believe in 1880. And it certainly made its mark, the architecture of this part of Tucson. Because it cuts diagonally
right through downtown, there’s been really no
good way to avoid it. For a lot of people, it’s in their way as they’re trying to get down the road. And they’re gonna be held
up for a minute and a half while this train goes
by, and it’s a menace. (harmonica music) I enjoy the train
crossing and so I usually whip out my phone and
take a couple of pictures. And then I have a an album
on what’s that thing? Facebook, called railroad
crossings and I just take a couple of pictures and post them pretty much every time
I encounter a train. It’s an opportunity to see something go by that you haven’t seen. No two trains are alike. The colors, I like the
colors, the graffiti on them. I’m not a huge graffiti person,
but every once in a while a train will go by and you’re like, “Wow, that’s some pretty
cool graffiti on that train.” The only ones you really know
about are the ones that have the big Tropicana thing
on the side, you say, “Oh, that’s, tanks full of orange juice!” But otherwise, there’s no
telling what’s in there. It’s the mystery of what’s
coming down the tracks. As long as the trains are
running, I will keep looking. – Did you know that the University
of Arizona marching band played the halftime show
at the first Super Bowl? That’s right, on January 15th
1967, the Kansas City Chiefs and the Green Bay Packers
faced off in an AFL NFL World Championship at
Los Angeles Coliseum, now known as the first Super Bowl. And that U of A marching band was known as the best in the West. (band playing) – [Tom] Achieving the right
sound requires precision. – [Announcer] That was
excellent, musically, thank you. – [Tom] There are high expectations for this group of musicians. – Same rep, keep pushing, let’s go. – So the goal is still the same, to be the best marching
band in the country and do innovative things, creative things, high value entertainment
things for the crowd. One of the things that I think
helped me coming from Disney is appreciating the value of
a quality performance but also creating an experience for
people that come to the campus. We want them to have
a game day experience. – [Tom] That experience is
built from the ground up through excellent musicianship,
personal performance, an emotional connection
with the fans in the stands. One of the instruments
most often associated with marching bands is the trumpet. (trumpets playing) – It does have a brassy type of sound, it’s the predominant sound you hear. When you’re out listening to a band, you’ll hear the trumpets all the time, and trumpets have to play out loud, so they like to be heard. – [Tom] Larry Paxton is a trumpet player and has played in bands since third grade. He also played for the
U of A marching band while he was a student. – I don’t practice as much
as I used to as in college, of course we played every day, so. My major was Math with a minor in Physics and systems engineering, it
was kind of the precursor to what would be computer sciences. (trumpet playing) – [Tom] For Paxton, playing music was a welcome distraction
from a rigorous academic life. – I’m really a geek and
it was a kind of a way of getting out of my
geekness to experience the other side of my brain as well. Also helped me be more disciplined,
it was a good foundation for me and I’m thankful
that I’ve had the experience to have music in my life. – [Tom] He’s now a member of the Pride of Arizona Alumni Band, comprised of former U of A band members, a multi generational group of
musicians who love to play. (band playing) They’re here on campus, also
practicing for tonight’s game. – One, two, one, two. – Another member of
the band, Ray Martinez. He was a music education major and plays the D-flat Piccolo. – It’s little shorter, a
little sharper, brighter sound and you could just really
hear that thing. (laughs) I love music, yeah. (band playing) We’re gonna be playing
music for the tailgaters, and then follow the pride
into the stadium afterwards and they’re playing some Rara music. – Now known as the pride of Arizona, back then they had a different nickname. – [Ray] Then it was known
as the best band in the West under Jack Lee. – Best in the west, that
was our big saying yes, best in the west. – [Tom] Larry Paxton, and
Ray Martinez are friends and have a lot in common. – We started marching and
they just stayed there. – [Tom] Both are musicians,
about the same age, and in 1967 both were
sophomores when they found out that they’d be playing
and the first Super Bowl. – Found out about it through
our band director, Jack Lee, he was considered one
of the great innovators of marching bands. (drumroll) It was really kind of a surprise,
we didn’t really know that we were gonna be playing in a Super Bowl. We enjoyed the University
of Arizona football games and we knew what football was
but it’s still hard to relate to what a professional football
championship was all about, how important it really was. So there was a lot of pressure
but on the other hand, it’s just another day at the park. I mean, you’ve done it
1000 times in rehearsals and you just gotta go out
there and do it right. (dramatic drum beats) – [Tom] On January 15 1967, when the Green Bay Packers
and the Kansas City Chiefs faced off in the AFL NFL
Championship game, now known as the first Super Bowl,
the game was played at the Los Angeles Memorial Coliseum. – At that time, considered
one of the three top bands in the United States,
we were the closest ones to Los Angeles, which is
where it was held and so it made kind of economic sense. It was during Greyhound
buses and so we didn’t have a whole lot of room, we had
our instruments and ourselves and so he said pack light,
change of underwear, bring your toothbrush. (band playing) When we got there, we practiced
at a couple of different high school stadiums, where
you practice the halftime show. We never knew quite what
was gonna happen but, we knew we’re gonna find
some way to have a good time and play hard and do our best. One day at rehearsal,
another band showed up. It was the Grambling band. (band playing) They really just did the
pregame show with us. And we really looked forward to meeting with the Grambling people. – We’d admired them because
they had a neat drum section. (dramatic drum beats) Oh, God was that unbelievable. I think I remember every
moment, just walking into Coliseum there, you walk through
a tunnel and then you go on to that field, the amount
of people that were there was just amazing and the
excitement was there. (band playing) – I look back and it was
a great time in my life and it was certainly a
big part of my growing up. I still have close bonds
with many of those people from the years. The lifelong friendships were formed as a result of being in the
band, it would have been true whether we went to the Super Bowl or not. (band playing) – Thank you for joining us
here on Arizona illustrated. I’m Tom McNamara. See you next week. (upbeat music)

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